black monday

today is not my day
i cant do anything
if you want me to do something,
i'll bang my head to the wall
i tried so hard
i tried
if i can just meet him one time
it's more than enough for me
yea im sad now
really really sad
what else i can do?
hah
i didnt blame anyone
so dont feel anything :)
im just kinda depressed
and frustrated

dear,
im so sorry
i didnt mean to spoil your day
you sure enjoying your bbq right now if not because of me
im just too selfish
sorry
its been quite long time we didnt meet
i miss you very much
but if i can just turn back time
i hope i wont make this plan
at least you wont feel disappointed
sorry again
i love you :(

and this is the most terrible holiday that i ever have
i mess up everything
someone please help me
i hope everything will be fine next time
really really hope

today is a black monday for me
black black black ♥
i love black :)